I was born in Mongolia. It is the country of horsemen, warriors, conquerors, nomads who travel camelback, shamans who communicate with dimensions beyond the ordinary reality. As a young person, I loved climbing barefoot on the rocky hills, gathering wild berries, conversing with small birds, and singing in the open air.
I often felt like a misfit. Perhaps it had something to do with getting switched at birth. The hospital made a mistake and I went home with a family different than my biological parents. They found me three weeks later and brought me back. My mother said I was a difficult child unlike my brother. Chewed on her nipples; “Off to the bottle filled with cow milk.” Got pneumonia at 3 months; ”Can’t believe I have to be hospitalized for the first time in my 30 years!“ Cried and moved a lot; “Why can’t you play nicely inside a carton box like your brother?”
My father loved my voice. He often asked me to sing at family gatherings. I remember his smiling eyes and proud glow as I sang. When I lost his affections to vodka, I lost the connection to my own voice.
All my teenage years I longed to break free. I left Mongolia when I was 19 to study in Japan where I became immersed in the contemplative arts. I graduated from Tokyo University, with Master’s Degree in Economics and I moved to the United States to pursue a career at the World Bank. Along the way, I was married — and divorced. Broken hearted, I returned to my connection to the world beyond the ordinary reality, through meditation and other contemplative energy practices.
I discovered my true calling in 2014 in Colorado, United States, at a vision quest program organized by School of Lost Borders, an organization that empowers individuals to claim their place within society and the natural world responsibly and respectfully. I arrived as an orphan child who had been separated at birth, as a Mongolian living in America, as a woman who lost her husband, with questions about where I belonged. I emerged from this profound experience with an understanding that I could belong everywhere if I could shift my perception of my place in the world. The land gave me a new name: “Weaver of The Golden Thread.” My journey to Wholeness involved weaving together of my soul and my body, my feminine and masculine parts, the lives I had lived and forgotten, and the ancestors I had denied.
For a long while, I walked in two worlds. As an economist, a CPA, and a data scientist, I made a living by managing budgets and leading data governance strategy. I excelled in my field and I was a respected leader. At the same time, I was teaching meditation and offering energy healing services for others as a Reiki master, shamanic practitioner, sound healer, and a nature-based guide. I published a book of poetry and five albums of original sacred songs. I obtained my accreditation as a leadership coach. I was starting to believe that I was meant to live in two different worlds as a bridge. Then the winds of change blew in the right direction and I was asked to make a concrete choice. I left my career in the professional field, and stepped fully into my healer, teacher, coach self. I am evolving to a sacred witness for others on their journey.
What I learned from my journey is that there is no final destination to this path of wholeness. There are no mistakes and no missing outs. There are no shortcuts and magical bypasses. There is only the authentic, at times painful at times miraculous, path of your unique journey. It begins and ends in the heart.
Who are you in your Holly Wholeness? What are your sacred wounds? What are your gifts? Where are you on your path? No matter what the answer is, I hear the calling of your Heart. I see the beauty of your Soul. I feel the power of your Wholeness. Connect with me now to discover how I can support you to Weave Your Wholeness.